Friday, April 25, 2008
the older i get the more of my friends and acquaintances have a hard time sleeping, for all types of proclaimed reasons. personally, with my few experiences and beliefs, it has everything to do with stress and the worries of an adult life... oh to be young again when you can sleep through nearly anything:)
Posted by payne at 7:37 PM
Sunday, April 20, 2008
it looks to me like i have a thing or two to learn from a cat, as i adopted one while in boone this weekend. this is my first cat as an adult and i hope she has a lesson to teach me on independence and non attachment:) dooby appears to be a small gal, a runt. she was never given a name but "little kitty" so today she took the title of "dooby" and we are taking to each other fairly naturally;) dooby the teacher....
Cats are often known as a symbol of meditation, mystery, wisdom, and good fortune. Cats symbolize love.
Posted by payne at 8:47 PM
Friday, April 11, 2008
"st. ralph", a cute film about a kid who tires to find a miracle to awake his mom from a coma, 90 minutes of fun and inspiratioin. on to a sexy and well done ahrab film by the name of "lila say's", goes straight to a place of discomfort and stays there, but handles with sweet actors, an interesting love story.
Posted by payne at 2:59 PM
Sunday, April 06, 2008
after a bout or two of anger (towards myself mostly) and a pity party or three... i had a great week of opening up my head, my heart, and seeing things clearer. i had some groovy friends, push me to talk about things instead of holding them in. addressing the pain, helped me to see how i got to where i was and that possibly the pain existed previous. i was trying to remedy it all in one place, which was not logical nor fair. "fair" i had lost in the fog. to use a metaphor.. when a gambler looses a lot, often times he places a big bet hoping to win it all back. this bet will either be his savior bet, or his demise.. of course he only sees a savior. good thing i dont gamble:)
Posted by payne at 2:12 PM
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
a great friend of mine, eh, was talking with me about my latest love saga and during a sweet moment told me she thought i was "still a catch and a half". i was thinking a bit about this word, "catch"... can one truly be a "catch" if the bait never stays in their mouth? and they are never caught? im a fish and a half, for sure:)
Posted by payne at 5:06 PM